I wish life was different. I’m withering. I’m falling. You know those highs and lows in your life? The only times you seem to be able to write our those lows. I miss my ink hitting the paper. Now I’m typing into screen I stare too often into. Whats the point of posting this blog when I know no one cares.

I’m lost. More lost then I have ever been in my life. And i cant breathe. and I want to be run away.

running away is not the answer. i’ve got school. commitment, family, friends..

why do i care what others think? I’m torn. I miss you so much. I miss everything so much. I miss life making sense. I miss seeing the world outside of my room. I’m stuck here. And I can’t leave. The thoughts tie me down. And then im here, at this stupid computer. Looking for answer. I can’t do this anymore. I feel so dramatic.. and yet so Fuck i don’t know. I sound stupid, even on this blog. but i don’t give a fuck anymore.

This new album by lymbyc is amazing, take a listen.

Lymbyc Systym-Ghost Clock